Officially missing you.

2010-10-22T11:13:00.002+08:00

You find people,
and then you lose them.
And it’s those goodbyes,
the ones you thought you’d never have to say
that hurt the most.

Sometimes late at night I think about
all the things that have been,
all the things that haven’t been
and all the things yet to be.
I wonder if this world will ever make sense to me,
if I will ever truly understand anything… and if there’s really anything to understand at all.

people choose their friends.
my friends choose me.

:(

all I can say.
I miss them all.

michael bolton how am i suppose to live w/o you(HQ)

2010-10-20T00:31:00.000+08:00

2010-10-20T00:28:00.002+08:00

my past is gonna make me lose everything.
everything I have.

2010-10-18T23:48:00.003+08:00

Everyday you meet different people.
Make new friends.
In school.
At work.
Some stay.
Some leaves.

Who are the ones that will stay?
It has been awhile.

Many say.
I think too much.
I'm just too emotional.
too sensitive.
Impulsive.
Give up easily.

Maybe that's really who I am.
we are all different don't we?

I believe I did my part.
But have you?

I'm always proud of them.
Cause we hang out every other weekends.
We can be doing the some shit every weekend.
We can talk about the same jokes every time we meet.
We can make fun of the ones that says stupid things.
We can fool around.
"Play" familly.
"Play" with emotions.
Cause we cant give a shit of how others look at us.
As long as we know we mean no harm.
We are friends.
for years.
This friendship takes time to build up.

Years to build up.
but it just takes a second to break it down.

Some say I'm like in a box.
When I'm in love.

I'm a bro when I'm not.

I trust them alot.
I thought they were always right.
They know me better than I know myself.
I'm realized I'm wrong.

People say stuff all the time,
some true, some not.
But at the end of the day,
your heart knows what the truth is.

Partially they are right.
I'm in the fucking box.
just cause they are the ones who boxed me up.
I tried stepping out a couple of times.
But no one gave me a chance.

Not once, not twice.
Too much of trying, just makes me felt like a fool.
Trying to make things better when I don't even understand why am I doing it.

Reason being?
I shouldn't snatch a bro away?

what exactly have I done wrong?

I know what I should have been.

I should be a man.
I should joined NS.
I should hv started gaming long time back.
I should..

does it really have to be the case to keep this going?
how did we even do it way back then.
I wonder.

Ok I shall not be so unfair.
Cause some tried to.
they tried to know me.
Hear what I have got to say.
got to share.
got to rant.

Not to comment how boring my life can be, though it may seems to be.
But just cause they are concern about you,
they are your friends.

I must learn to love the fool in me;
the one who feels too much,
wins sometimes and loses often,
loves and hates,
hurts and gets hurt,
laughs and cries.

Maybe things will be different if I just disappear for while.
I have just took over the I'm just there position.
How great.
I should have been prepared.

Sorry my love, for not being in the best of mood.
to sing you a song that you requested.
You know I very much want to.
Its not a good day for both of us.
But deep down I know we both know.
We are happy as one.

Before the night ends.
I still tell myself.
Happy 4th month anni.
I love you b.
alot.
Good luck for tmr.

loves.

2010-10-11T00:09:00.002+08:00

The moment I open the door.
predicted that he is hiding somewhere.
saw him behind the door.
Can't help it but to jump & hug him tight.
No words can describe this moment.
its the look.

Oh nono.. I dont mean THAT LOOK. hahaha.
I always had been talking about.
that the bitches will give me. LOL.

this look that we exchange.
its just special (:
Love you baby.
finally you are home.
In my arms (:
Just can't get enough of you.

Its like you are next to me,
but I'm still missing you like crazy.
how can this be happening?
I dunnoe. lol

It feels really great to see baby around.
singing while he style his hair.
hug him from the back while he's using the com.

baby bought me presentsss.!
brought a new FRIEND BACK!
smackie has a new friend too.
I just turned around I saw smackie and new FRIEND in a very weird position.
Thank to my love.
HAHA.
That's the reason why I love you so much.
Cause you are always being yourself.
BORN!. but cute in a way.
Never fail to irritate me.
Claim that Im so cute.
Because Im stupid/dumb.
LOL. wth right. hahaha.
dunnoe if its a good thing or bad.

Grocery shopping this noon.
My very first attempt to cook. (:
For my love.
"dinner filled with love?" heehee

each time I teared.
don't be sad.
because it shows,
I love you more than yesterday.

You wont be affected by just anyone.
only the ones you care.

& you are the one I care most.

for the first time,
in a long time, my life is real.
It doesn’t matter who ends up with who,
because it’s always gonna be you and me.

what you feel now,
is what I feel for you.(:
my only fit-pie.

hashbrown.

2010-10-08T00:26:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for Saturday to come. (:
My love is coming home.

Sunday gonna cook dinner for baby.
My first time.(:

for baby <3

2010-10-02T22:47:00.003+08:00

Baby left.
Day One already sucks big time.

Just received baby's text.
baby claimed that I blackmailed him.
Must be the little notes that I wrote for him.
When he is suppose to only open one per day when he is in Indo.
Baby misses me.
But I think I miss him more.
Cause I was so glad to see his text that I teared.
I sucks right.
crybaby.
weak child.

:(

I want my goodnight kiss on the forehead.

2010-09-30T10:18:00.002+08:00

Bruno Mars- Just the way you are.
On Repeat. (:

The only reason it triggers me to put this song on repeat just cause I rmb baby once sang that when we heard it on the radio over at my place.
Just when we were lying in bed ,about to sleep.(:
Baby hugged me and sang this song. <3
.
..
...
....
.....
......
.......
........

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

2010-09-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

Guess what this little boy tells me tonight? (:

Make a guess?

"You are my PROPERTY!" <3

Something owned; any tangible or intangible possession that is owned by someone.

Baby owns me. (:

I Love You.

2 More Days to go. :(

2010-09-27T12:04:00.001+08:00

missing makes the heart grow fonder. (:

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.

The thought of baby going away for 9 days sucks. :(

2010-09-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

3 days seems like 3 weeks.
I Miss you baby.

dizzy dizzy.
fuck the flu.
zz

2010-09-22T22:22:00.002+08:00

you can never understand how badly I want to forget about what happened.
you are right.
you are so damn right about everything.
no matter how much I beg you to stop saying what I don't want to hear.
that I don't want to face.
you continue.

thanks for doing this to me.
it really triggers me bad enough to hurt me.
horrible and scared enough that I can't stop tearing now.

I hate myself.
fml

2010-09-18T00:32:00.002+08:00

baby asked,
"why don't you blog anymore?"
sounded with a sad face. :(

My reply was.
Just Cause I know,
you are gonna end up reading it to me!!!
It makes me feel like a silly girl hearing myself. Hahahahha.

b. thinks I blog like a silly kid.
But I know,
baby knows it all sum up to
telling him... I love him so much.

Even though he loves to make fun of me. (:
I will still do it!

Happy Monthsary (:
Yes. You spoiled my plans.
And decided to party with your boys.
Make me spent the eve home alone.

I haaaaattttt...
I still love you.
(:

Too bad you can't see the awesome artwork tonight.
lalalalalallala---...

goodnight fit-pie.
you owe me both weekends!

2010-09-06T23:52:00.006+08:00

Love the way you dote on me.
"Orh-SUM" BK Trip with love.

Baby whines.
Baby got her GIANT TUBE of MENTOS. <3

2010-08-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

"Why you got shrimps, I don't have :( "
though there's only 2 pathetic shrimps.

Baby throw me one of it and left it on my plate.
I pass it back.

Baby says : "You don't accept my love?"

I replied : "So your love for me is like shrimps?" HAHAHAHHAHA.

That's really damn bullshit.

HAHA!

While walking back.
I wanted some coke from baby.
There he goes.. "oooohhh noooo.....
and yes I knew it.
Baby just being himself.

Hahaha.

I Love the way you laugh at me.
Though I feel damn dumb when you does that.
But I can't explain how this feels like.
I'm justtttt
happy.
(:

2010-08-30T00:08:00.003+08:00

Chat with baby.
Sunday Duty really sucks.
Doesn't even feel like a Sunday to me.

By any chance.
If our conversation on the phone was recorded.
I bet I will keep repeating it every night.
We chat like kids.
Baby laughs so happily when I tried to speak to him like a small girl.
hahahaha.
See you soon b.

Went Resort World Casino last night.
7 Hours of Roulette.
In the end.
No Win.
No Lose.
LOL.

But it was a good experience though. (:

4 more Days to Bangkok Trip with love. <3

2010-08-23T01:23:00.002+08:00

Dad's back home.
Mum moved.

when's the last time I cooked for my dad.
I have no idea.

I can't sleep.
Can't explain how this feels like.

9 years.
I waited.

I miss you dad.

2010-08-19T13:46:00.002+08:00

I ♥ this big fat liar so much (:

Monthsary ♥♥
18/08/10

baby called.
"I'm enjoying the scenery outside."

I thought baby was home.
At his kitchen window.
Smoking.
That's why he said that.

He asked if I want to smoke.
I said Nope.
No Feel.
Then he was like.
ok fine, then you can open your door.

I swear I seriously don't believe he really came to surprise me.
Furthermore, it was just an hour ago before we part after dinner.

I just cant help it but to rush into the room with baby and jump onto his back.
Screaming.
Whining.
Whack him like a small kid.
That he has been such a big fat liar the whole week.
and..
I really love him so much.

But I'm really so happy.
(:

baby said he din know I could be this happy.
hehehee.

" Although I was jealous, I realised that after all, all of them broke your heart and that I'm gonna be different!"

This sentence kept repeating in my head.
So just remember baby.
I don't need all the gifts and all that I used to get in the past.

Comparison is just not needed at all.
Cause you are what that matters to me now.

I just need you to love me wholeheartedly.
Like you always have been.

You can surprise me in one thousand and one ways.
You can buy me one thousand and one branded items.

I already had enough experiences of fairytales.

been there done that.

You are right baby.
What took us so long to get together (:
Let's be the most chill partners ever alright?

You know,
I love you .
♥♥♥ Hashbrown.

2010-08-08T14:20:00.003+08:00

Phuture night.

2010-08-06T23:15:00.001+08:00

I miss my love.

2010-08-05T10:52:00.002+08:00

Inception Night with Benny + Lin Na Beh.

31/07/10.

I can never have both.

2010-08-05T10:11:00.003+08:00

I call them my Usuals.
Primary friends.
Top Most Priority Group.
But why is it so that everyone else knows it, except they themselves.

Why must there be such a drastic change of treatment.
Just because of status changes.

We seems like fools.
I really think that's plain childish.

I don't deny I was damn disappointed.
And this have been bothering me quite badly.
After knowing what had been said at the back of the scene.

It feels great to have a fun bunch of friends who treat you equally important as how you treated them.

But now I know it.
maybe it used to.
maybe it was never the case.

I shouldn't have thought after clearing the air.
Things will be good again.

Nevertheless.
It still feels the same in the end.

to all of you.
everything can be joke.
Nothing really matters at all.
Nothing can be serious.

does it really have to be the case?

can anything be as funny as this?

I had been keeping quiet for a long while.
Not because I'm trying to make is seems like I'm damn awesome.
Cause I tried to take things easy.
cherish the friendship.

But I really see this going no where anymore...

Disappointed is all i can say.

sometimes I ask .

who are the ones that will really be there for me if something terrible happens to me.

One day,
you realize you will never hear from me again.

Fml.

2010-07-30T12:30:00.003+08:00

Chris Daughty - September on repeat. (:
Awesome song.

Work has been such a routine.
Bills just sucks big time.
After paying out, salary for mum.. I'm left with "Baby's MP salary" lol.
How pathetic.
I should just sign on. zz

Nevermindddd...
I shall look forward to my Bangkok trip in Sept.(:

boredom @ work.

IMY- Apple Pie.
:(

2010-07-21T22:30:00.005+08:00

KK's 21st BIRTHDAY

Dine in @ District 10.
http://www.district10.com.sg/

2010-07-14T11:30:00.001+08:00

The one that care less wins.

The problem with me.
Care too much.
Think too much.

I suck.

2010-07-09T13:04:00.002+08:00

Amor , no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart

Can't stop listening after I heard it at gw macs last night. (:
Frankie J songs are just awesome.

Work :

Finally some time for me to breath.
Had been real busy the past 2 days.
Left work late and all.
Tiredssss.

BUT IT'S FRIDAY !(:

Boyfriend.
Boyfriend.
Boyfriend.

No I mean,

Boyfriend loves me. <3
lol

2010-07-02T14:50:00.002+08:00

Now baby has Angen over me :( lol

Bills Bills and more Bills.
Just like Rain Rain and more Rain.
Outside pouring like mad.
I feel f.cold. :(

TGIF.(:

Finallyy meeting that asshole WL tonight at our usual drinking place.
Alright fine, some catch up before he enlist.
Some peace after that, like finally. HAHA.

So far having quite a good life at work.
Yes keep this going.(:

Baby.Sgt staying in this sat.
That means I'm gonna plan my day for tml. :(

I need tan (:
Must make full use of baby's Safra Card. HAHA.

Suddenly, two words just popped up in my head.
"Club Padang" HAHA.
that's for YL.

It comes from KK though.
If i never rmb wrongly.
Just like club Boonlay. :X

Inside Joke.

UNO

2010-07-01T11:24:00.000+08:00

Baby Choose UNO over me. :(
lol.

2010-07-01T11:08:00.004+08:00

Vivien's Birthday / Meiyu's farewell.

@Boiler.Room / St.James PH.

Time is priceless, but it’s free. You can’t own it, you can use it.
You can spend it, but you can’t keep it.
Once you’ve lost it, you can never get it back.

so true uh.

I'm getting real bored.
Dozing off any sec.

I wannntttt to get out of towwnnnnn....
:(

2010-06-25T11:47:00.002+08:00

AIA- Secretary / cum PA. = Good Life

Its really a good time for me to save up for studies / driving.
I should stop procrastinating.
(:

had a bad day last night.
I walked away.
I admit it wasn't of a big issue at all.
and i swear this is the first time i walked away from the group.

stomped back to my room.
blast some music.
mum asked if im alright.
I said im just pissed. Leave me alone.

Then baby called.
ask me to open the door.
don't get it wrong.
It has got nth to do with my boy.

dumb boy said.
"oh mann.. everyone is gonna think its me who pissed you off."
silly him. lol

Maybe I should learn to take things easy.
We are all different.
Different personality.
Different character.

I'm really fine already.
Don't know what went wrong last night.
however the case.
I know I still need each and everyone of them.
I touched my heart.
It says : I still care.

30mins more to lunch time. (:

Im feeling real coldddd in the office.

2010-06-22T22:47:00.011+08:00

Ming's BIGDAY.

KITE.FLYING.(:

when everything falls in place. <3
Yes laugh all you want baby.
(:
Just cant stop making fun.
like you always do.
Get well b.

First day of work.
hope things are gonna be good.

Clear the air.
I'm a happy girl.
Yay. Im still a bro.
(:
thanks kk.

2010-06-16T00:57:00.002+08:00

The romantics call this a love story,
the cynics would call it a tragedy.
In my mind, it's a little bit of both,
it does not change the fact that it involves a great deal of life
and the path chosen to follow.
I have no complaints about my path and the places it has taken me to
the path I've chosen has always been the right one.
and I wouldn't have had it any other way.

How do we all view our past?
Can you ever escape your past?

Maybe the question is will you ever be able to escape your past?
will you?
(:

2010-06-14T00:54:00.002+08:00

whether is it for good or bad.
I've made a choice.

Some say I'm not strong enough.
Some say I'm just giving up too easily just cause..

Be it what it may seems to be.
Maybe I just don't see myself in this for the next few years ahead.
Having sleepless night.
Fear to fall asleep, just cause I know the day after is gonna be so dreadful.

Knowing I'm finally out of it.
I felt relieved.
(:

alrighttt..

Shall stay positive. (:

Jobstreet.
Jobstreet.
and more Jobstreet.

Work sucks I swear.
If I have a choice, I would want to further my studies.
Like right now.

2010-06-06T22:17:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we leave because we really want to stay.

the best Sunday ever.
Chill ttm.

♥♥♥

2010-06-02T21:58:00.003+08:00

Maybe what they say is true.
There are those people you encounter in life whom you never really get over.
Even if you meet others who treat you better and love you more, there is always that person you can’t quite completely forget at the back of your mind.

------http://runawaytrain.tumblr.com/

Looks like I don't have a choice.
I could only have a positive mindset now.
For me to walk on.
2 more days @ sixth.Ave. :(

Me and woman made a pact.
One year (:
Second bonus.
Wish us Luck please.

Somehow.
I felt pretty happy at work today.
Environment and colleagues really play a very important part.
isn't it.

Weekends weekends.
Thank god Friday is coming soon.

2010-05-31T21:48:00.002+08:00

Binghan's BIGDAY. ♥

2010-05-30T04:13:00.001+08:00

It always ends up with.

nothing.

2010-05-29T18:38:00.002+08:00

Rebel night with mates.

bumped into Jiawen.
Got her in free with my membership.lol
She must be thinking how come I appear in different clothings HAHA.
It was just within an hour from the time service night ends.
LOL.

I had a good swam this afternoon.
cabbed to Safra.
wasted trip.
cabbed to LD complex.

Im fat.
and im serious abt it. lol
I had good swim.
10 laps shag me out.
im such weak child i know.
fine i need a few more trips to build up my stamina.
please give me a chance can.

I'm real bored.
something is wrong with me.
and i still dunnoe why.

siannnnn

2010-05-28T15:12:00.010+08:00

Last week of training.

starting from Rec.com visit.
to timbre @ CQ.
and to service night 2010.

2010-05-24T00:29:00.002+08:00

its feels like..
fuck?

some envy.
but I rather not have it.

its accumulative issues i must say.

but aiya fuck it.

the winner lies with who care less.

let's just look forward to weekends.

bh's big day this Friday.

2010-05-23T13:25:00.001+08:00

Mount.Sophia Timbre ♥♥♥

2010-05-23T01:22:00.004+08:00

The Grad.Day that i missed. :(

Alley bar with loves. <3

Swirl.Art Surprise (:

HUISHAN.LUVENA.JINGHUI (:

Mount.Sophia with Ivy and Shawna.
Photos to be updated soon (:

always remind yourself that you deserve to be happy (:
no explanations needed for whatever you are doing.
isn't it?.
<3

2010-05-20T16:53:00.004+08:00

OCBC- PTBO (Polytechnic Bank Officers)

One more week of training.

Of all the days.
I just have to miss my grad day :(
Fuck the cramps.

2010-05-13T00:24:00.002+08:00

Some UPss.
Some DOWNss.

Hmmmm..

but still.
im feeling good.(:

how should i put it? Ha. i dunnoe.

well. oh thank god. weekends are nearing! <3

I just realized its not the job that matters to me now.
lol.

If i have a choice.
Can i just stop working for once? lol.
I had been working my entire life. arghh.
work work work.
sickening.

I so wanna go back to school now. :(

Working society sucks big time.
Basically i think im putting unnecessary stress on myself.
Come on, pat on the back. It's time to tell myself, take it slow.
(:

Its like a.. i want it yet i don't. (:

and the stupid woman has to go..... HANARrrrrrrrr lol.. nb.

Colbie Caillat - Fallin' For You

2010-05-11T14:36:00.000+08:00

2010-05-11T13:28:00.008+08:00

Zouk Event : Steve Atoki

East Coast on a SUNDAEEEE..CJ

More uploaded pics from dk's cam.- wr's 21st.

♥ I'm glad you called. (:

2010-05-10T03:40:00.002+08:00

In short.
Another good weekend.
But it always seems so short.

Kanna zham by usuals.
"JUST SLEEP".

More and more adidas.
accumulating.

Long way till next weekend.
zz.

Im fuck awake.
but i just need to sleep.
damn.

٩(-̮̮̃•̃)۶ <3

2010-05-06T23:25:00.002+08:00

Learn the subtle difference between holding a hand
and changing a soul.

Love doesn’t mean leaning
Company doesn’t mean security.
Kisses aren’t contracts.
Presents aren’t promises.

Begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead…

Build all your roads on today
because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

Plant your own garden instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure,
that you really are strong and that you really do have worth…

and with every goodbye, you learn.

day 2 at branch.
fun colleagues.
manageable crowd.
Good pace.

some grooming lessons tml.
looking forward (:

TGIF. <3

time to party?
feel for some boozes

2010-05-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

Maybe that’s what I’m starting to realize,
pain is temporary,
but the connections we make,
they last forever and change our lives in ways
that we’re not even aware of yet.

ONE TRUTH IN LIFE: you can close your eyes to the things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to the things you don’t want to feel.

Reporting to branch tml.
how scary can this be.
gosh.

Sixth Avenue.
God knows how to go mannn. zz.

wish me luck (:

2010-05-02T21:53:00.008+08:00

movie week.
IP man -Friday night
Iron man -Saturday night

Attendance pretty good on Friday.
9 of us all present. (:
after movie,supper at lavender.
yl,gab and kc head back.
Linna and bh left after too.

Left me.wr.kk and dk.
Tiong baru Macs to slack.
when i hear this song by joey mcintyre - Stay the same.

so nice can the song.
its was like on repeat when i got back home.

Sat:
everyone is watching iron man.
but with own friends.
All busy.
All got own plans.
Left me and wr no program.

we decided to IRON MAN TOO!
since everyone pangseh US.lol
YL fetch us to chomp chomp after that.

Some stupid jam.
we took like 1hour? to reach ALps.
some beer.
some darts.
first time trying.
kind of hook on it though.
fun game. (:

oh did i mention i bumped into HUISHAN LUVENA AND JINGHUI on THURSDAY.
I was so happy mann.
i haven seen huishan for ages..
some catch up done. <3

Swam at bh's apartment.
dinner at crest.
then PTBF book in :(

im bored.
:(

the thought of going to work tml just sian.
:(

2010-04-29T01:19:00.002+08:00

Attention USUALS :
FRIDAY - 30 APRIL 2010
GV GRAND - 11.50PM
IP MAN 2
TICKETS BOOKED.

TOES ARE DEAD.

Finally THURSDAY is here.

nights.

Changes,changes and more changes.

2010-04-27T23:13:00.016+08:00

GOOD BREAK.
GOOD TIMES.

`SWIRL ART ICECREAM YOGURT-- KK <3 LNB <3 TSC
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`SENTOSA - LINNABEI <3 TSC
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they are the ones that never say bye. <3
- wr's big day !

[WR.KK.TSC.LN.KC.DK.ANGIE.YL.BH]

Random picked pictures (:
too many to upload.
hell lot of fun.

ok enough of uploading.
im getting sleepy. lol.

some updates.
ocbc day 2 ended.
slowly im feeling a hell lot of stress.
looking at the stacks of notes staring back at me.
Some new "POS SYSTEM" to master well.
I'm starting to feel old everyday.

Trains packed with working adults every morning.
Busy streets.
Formal.
makeups.
heels.
Is what all of us cant escape form now.
working society just seems scary.

woman carries her bomb everywhere during break times.
OLs leave tissues w packaging that says "this seat is taken"
me and gdine like "wtf?. typical Office ladies sia " .

posted to sixth avenue.
woman is a lucky bitch.
walking distance only.
zz.
pro and cons though. HAHA
you are forever stuck in bedok.
lol.

hmm..
well..
was having some thoughts while uploading the photos.
till then.
i cant really rmb what i wanted to mention.
but i just got to say.

I know changes is all we need.
but i just hope changes take its time.
no rush.
cause when there's so many things happening at the same time.
I'm starting to feel scared.

2010-04-26T23:18:00.008+08:00

FRIDAY FUN <3

Party at Naumi hotel.

"WR LIKEABICBOI DAY"- KK quoted.
PICTURES AWAITING. lol
So no updates yet.

PREVIEW OF LIKEABICBOI'S Birthday Album done by TSC. (:

DAY ONE AT OCBC.
Shall blog abt it tml.
Time to KO.
Too the f.shag.
nights :)

2010-04-21T00:19:00.006+08:00

What we do on FRIDAY NIGHTS. <3

2010-04-20T22:16:00.003+08:00

It wasn’t made to be easy,
otherwise we wouldn’t end up with the right person.
We would end up with the first one who comes along.
By struggling we single out the wrong ones and realize who really is the one. (:

[credits to Gdine]

It's weekdays with woman.
quoted by the kp-kia.
HAHA.

Had a great day.
Can't be more relax than this. (:
Thank god.
No Rain.
<3

And YES.
Guess what.
Im like so in love with Victoria Secrets!.
we went RW-VS.
the moment i stepped in.
every single shit i feel like buying.
and i just have to buy something. :x
lol.

LOVIN IT ttm. lol

and yes.
more shopping.

2010-04-20T00:47:00.002+08:00

No use dwelling on what might have been.
Think of all the fun that you could be having. (:

Can't wait for Sat (:

SENTOSA TML <3

2010-04-18T05:09:00.002+08:00

More of FLEA FLEA FLEA.
Please Don't Rain.
Zz.

Monga just rocks.
lol.

I was late.

For 15mins.
wr says I've bad time management!

Alright.
lets just pray i sell all my clothes tml.
we did vm change every hour.
we did EOD on the cab.
we rack up as and when we feel like it.
we sell tops as cheap as A DOLLAR.
lol.

and i managed to earn 90 bucks within 4 hours?
ok la.
profit pretty low though.
wish us luck tml. (:

[wr.kk.yl]

We had prata.
we toast with random drinks instead of beers.
we tried to get our dialect right.

we had a good day (:

2010-04-16T18:19:00.000+08:00

old brown shoe.

DINNER DINNER DINNER. (:

2010-04-16T01:13:00.002+08:00

The answer is yes.
If you are willing to. (:

It can't be a one sided effort.
It takes two.

(:

I had a good tanned.
I had a good day with Karine.

FRIDAY. <3

2010-04-13T22:03:00.002+08:00

My fucking last day.

damn.
BYE to all cartons.
Im never gonna touch you again. (:

Im seriously seriously,"FUCKING SHAG". lol
I swear.
I haven been this TIRED before.
I must say.
Setting up the store is ten times easier than TEARING DOWN THE DAMN STORE. lol.
There's like one thousand and one things to do every min.
oh please. just let me whine as much as i want to.
I really need this.

8am.
all the way till 7.30pm.
no breaks.
no drinks.
no food.
not a single sec Im stoned.
Finally when everything ended.
I just had to drop on the floor.
Right before the 3 delivery man.
LOL.
They just couldn't help it but to laugh at me.

Alright alright.
i guess that's pretty much enough of whines.

Anyway,
i can't believe i stayed in a company for that long.
but well.
i guess 5 years of retail experience,
make me feel damn proud of myself. lol
and i think its time for it to end here.

Gonna take a short one and a half weeks break.
Some tanning session.
Siglap with love.
Market TEA TIME/FridaySs Dinner/YL's back from taiwan/Catch-up w DNSW + LWL/Wr's 21st/.....blah blah blah.
Its gonna kept me occupied to the fullest till my training starts (:

26th April.
OCBC Bank (:

Im gonna be positive. (:
So wish me luck.

It's about time for all this to come an end (:

woman had her wake up call not long ago.
And yes.
i just gotten mine.

Along the way.
i might have lost some things,that i treasured,
that i will always wanna to cherish them
that i will want to have it for a long long time.
and will never want any of it to be taken away.

But i have realized.
you lose something.
you gain something.

I had just gain back what belongs to me,
and i somehow believe that
what's mine will always be mine. (:

Isn't it. (:

why am I taking so long to understand this.
lol.

AH YES.
My usuals will only have one word for me.
"DUMB".
lol.

But do you know.
Have much I love them?.
HAHA.
you will never know.

Woohoo.
Its time for me to catch some rest man.
Its gonna be a new start for me.
new prospect.
new life.
new working environment.

I believe this will be a good start (:

Wish me luck.
will you?
(:

2010-04-07T02:12:00.002+08:00

Half our life sleeping,
Whole life waiting...

Waiting in lines,
waiting for times,
waiting to be old enough,
waiting for a call.

Waiting for someone to say something,
waiting for them to notice you.

Constantly waiting for that one person,
and they have no idea you’re waiting for them.

Never.

Sometimes, my thoughts of you are the only things that keep me going.

I got played.

And then, I was left distracted all over..
not knowing what was I doing the whole time.
Just cause i thought you really did said that.

What a wishful thinking.

2010-04-06T01:44:00.004+08:00

In your life,
you meet people.
Some you never think about again.
Some, you wonder what happened to them.
There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you.
And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again.
But you do.

KK = Out of Camp.
WR = MC
TSC = OffDAY

MONDAY AFTERNOON : LUNCH + Starbucks

kk concluded.
We will have lunch at 4pm.
Dinner at 11pm.
Supper at 5/6am.
Don't sleep.
and Shag through the morning.
That's Us.

Just cause me and wr were fucking wasting time.
and wr just hv to ask me what am i wearing. LOL
a moment of LN. lol

Ahhhh...
payday payday...
please come soon.

2010-04-05T02:43:00.003+08:00

wr : tsc trademark.
LOL.

saturday moviess.
@ plaza Sing.
When in Rome.

felt young.
just like 2 years back.

<3

2010-03-31T22:48:00.004+08:00

Maybe its only right for me to stop running back to the one person that i need to walk away from.

one of the random club night with loves.<3
dbl O last day (:

2010-03-24T01:14:00.003+08:00

I GOT IT. <3

Like i said.
God is fair.
though pple love to say nothing is fair. LOL.

come to think of it.
you wont be unlucky in ALL aspects.
usually one out of ten.

for me.

its L.

other than that.
im pretty much lucky i feel.

KARINE KONG says im one mad woman.
that she totally cant stand.

i replied.
Sorry i can't be as fuckup as you.
HAHA.

2010-03-23T02:11:00.004+08:00

What if love isn't just about boy meets girl?

Baby nephew, Zan.
Carefree life
Eat sleep shit.

I said to mum.
I wished i was like him.

Finally Im off.
Went shopping with sis.
Vivo.
And yes.
Offday still end up at CTN-ON.

Like i said.
I think i really "had enough".
lol.

Sis just needs some clothes after pregnancy.
fat fat fat. lol
Tooooo Bad...
Fine Im evil. HAHA

Impromptu meeting.
with woman LEE.

313 puffs.
4ever 21.
WC. <3

short.simple.chill.

Shocks for the day :

Phone call.

Results.

OMG...E.. lol

hmmmm..
OMGE...

I used to said that to him.
but well..
:(

2010-03-19T01:33:00.003+08:00

finally.
im back home.

today.
i swear.
i got the worse day ever.
TOTALLY just not my day.

i cant imagine im such a retard.

comes the end of the day.

i just have to tell gdine this.
it just really proves..

"EVERYTHING JUST REALLY HAPPEN FOR A FUCKING REASON."
and i just hv to repeat that 10 million times.
i cant stop whining...

from suntec to mabel's place.
back to suntec.
then to ION orchard.
to cuppage.
back to mabel's place.
back home.
Gab's house.
market.
back home.

JUST IMAGINE.
Zzz.

i cant blame anyone.
cause im simply dumb.
retard.
fuck.

which idiot will go inside the backroom.
leave the set of keys INSIDE THE BACKROOM.
with my belongings.
my colleague's belongings.
all inside the backroom.
Lock the door.
and left the one and only set of keys INSIDE THE BLOODY backroom?
how the hell is anyone gonna get back in again when the set of keys is behind the damn door.
fml.

yes.
im really a fucking loser.
i was so pissed with myself.

i spent 30 over bucks.
cabbing ard.

dumbfuck.
:(

along the way.
breaktime.
cant even eat in peace.

cock up roster.
no one understands what is compromising.
im the only one compromising.
what's the point.

there's only this much one can give in.
sacrifices.

my limit is there already.
so please.
dun push me any further.

...

ahhhh...

i need a break.
i need a break.
i need a break.
i need a break.
i need a break.
i need a break.

like seriously.

2010-03-16T01:27:00.002+08:00

Smiling doesn’t mean that I’m happy.
Laughing doesn’t mean that I don’t cry.
Walking away doesn’t mean that I don’t feel the urge to run away.
And loving you doesn’t mean that I’ll wait for you forever.

But you must really know this.

That i will always remember you.

bed after puff.
nights.

2010-03-16T00:14:00.003+08:00

DAMN FULL.
I HAD MACS. (:

Alright i know its bad.
cause im still having flu.
Im seriously too tired and lazy to walk to the market.
and my bro is not back home again.
feeling of home alone sucks.
where are you bro. :(

anyway,
Mabel was like telling me about this lady gaga Illuminati Symbolism thingy.
Its like so interesting but scary.
you guys have to check this out.
But if you are a fan of gaga, maybe you might wanna skip this. lol.

http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=1676

hair stands.
seriously.
scared-ed.lol

please man.
i need to get well soon.

work roster to plan.
sales set up coming up.
VM changes for April coming up.

I can't imagine its already my 3th week working.
2 off days per week.
4 nine hours shift.
1 eight hours shift.
EVERY WEEK.
Suntec is like my second home.

Seriously can't wait for my first full time AWESOME PAY. <3

Was hoping that i was given a chance to ask.
To be there for you.
Even if i wasn't of any help.
Will i ever be able to do that?

my dumb friend said.
its all about myself.
if i don't try,
it will never happen.

2010-03-15T00:25:00.001+08:00

fuck the flu.

2010-03-14T00:57:00.001+08:00

home on a weekend.
its sat.
Im ill.
:(

steamboat last night.
chillax at Alps.
nice place.

2010-03-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

flu flu flu.
please go away.

2010-03-11T01:53:00.002+08:00

Toddler talks.
my little nephew.

cause i know i wont be getting any reply.
all i needed was to tell someone.
that i miss that one person.

and i wont end up getting any negative replies.
it will only work.
with my little zan.

Aunt wished you feel me.
you do right.
i know.

finally my off day tml.

time for dear john.

off to bed.

nights.

2010-03-10T02:28:00.004+08:00

2010-03-10T01:08:00.002+08:00

why.

seriously why.

i thought i could cool myself down after a hot bath.
but why am i so fucking pissed with myself.

it wasn't about any particular issue.
rather..
its a combination of issues.

life is fuck up.
fine.

and my phone.
just have to die on me at this time.
whats the fuck point when i can receive sms and phonecalls but i cant fucking return any of it.
alright fine,
its not like anyone will need me that urgently yet.
but still.
i fucking hate this feeling.
maybe that wasn't exactly the reason being it.

you know.
there's always more to it.
that no one will ever sees it.

why has it got to be me.

my dumb friend.
i seriously hope you will be strong.
we are both in it.
maybe it just got worse for you.
but for me..
it wasn't of any better.

cause i want the exact thing back.
that u need it too.

sorry my call was delayed.
i dunnoe what more to say.

to know what you are going through on the other side.
accept to listen.
and understand.
cause i feel you.
cheer up.

i just felt like shouting through the walls.
across to my bro.
i want a hug so badly.
i just need to cry it all out.

i miss him.
i seriously do.

2010-03-09T02:03:00.003+08:00

Day one @ work. (:
Met Mabel.
two one two.
shift sucks.
hours sucks.
crowd sucks.

but the day feels pretty alright (:
Bought dear john + notebook last night at kinokuniya. (:
Cramp sucks.
but i just have to go buy the book.
haha.
brought dear john to work.
had a peaceful KFC dinner with "dear john".
then was dear john + smoke.

when suddenly i felt the image was just wrong.
reading a book and smoking at the same time.
tats just confusing.
so then i put the book down on the bench.

evening.
owner dropped by.
just to talk to me for 5mins? lol
i think he needs some rantings session.
cause internship was fuck up .
fuck up dress code.
fuck up boss.
fuck up day.

be positive (:
cause tats only the start to working society.
there's more to come.

after mabel left.
that was 2 hours alone till closing.
nobody stepped into the shop for at least a 15mins.

i swear.
i wasn't thinking of anything the whole day.
nth was really affecting me.

till then..

hang in there.
alright?

I forgive you, but I will never forget the way you made me feel when you walked away.

2010-03-08T01:13:00.002+08:00

Because for me,
it’s always been you.
Always.
I’ve tried to fight it,
and I’ve tried to deny it.
But I can’t.

4mths22days.

2010-03-07T02:10:00.003+08:00

Feelings never do make sense.
They get you all confused.
drive you around for hours
before they drop you right back where you started.

Did you ever notice that there is always that particular line
in every love songs that always stands out among the rest
and reminds you of that one person whom you can't forget?

I do.

I suddenly felt like I'm one of those people who are so miserable that
I can’t be around normal people.
Like I’ll infect the happy people.

why love don't come with such a contract.
saying "you can never break my heart".

sometimes starting over is harder than u thought
just cause its him
which makes it even harder.

I hurt someone today.
I'm sorry.

its not that you haven't done enough.

just cause.

i thought i had enough.

2010-03-05T00:34:00.002+08:00

you either missed it or regret it.
but either way,
you are forced to remember it.

i can tell one thousand and one people.
"what's the point?"
but i just cant get it myself.

bad start in the morning.
family.

then comes..
nobody knows whats wrong.

was at novena.
on that sofa seats.
just outside novena CTN.

double combo for the day.
fantastic.

third.
fuck up bitch.
look at me like one kind.
one more useless command.
she's so gonna get it.

heading home.
then this dumb drunkard called.
din want my mood to affect anyone.
so i kept it for awhile.
and he goes on..
kp-ing.. screaming ..shouting..

just cause i knw he is equally upset.
then sudden hangup.
i knew thats it.
KO time.
goodnight friend.

home sweet home.

so need to get drunk.
not to forget.
but to sleep.

ION orchard tml.
zz another long day.
...

fuck it.

fuck this shitty feeling.
please tell me what's wrong with me.

2010-03-04T01:27:00.003+08:00

oh man.

this post is a
"MUST POST".

Facebook is causing too many dramas.
Dramas big time.
One comes after another.
I'm no exception.

I mean nth for me right now.

But i mean once in a while.
back then and stuffs.

this time around it concerns pple ard me.
like a Hey did you see facebook... blah blah blah..
fb just kills. lol.
its worse than friendster.
When IT gets more and more advance every year.

and yes.
im a IT student.
very nice.

k im done.

ANYWAY,
J's PLAN.! (:
So looking forward.

updates :

fire up week for me.
1st march.
first day of work.
Like FULL TIME JOB.
Reasonable good salary.
Easy way out.
Save my time from going for interviews.
Flipped through newspapers.
jobstreets.
blah blah blah.

i regret not taking a longer break.
but its too late. lol
I feel alright la.
Im gonna be rich.(:
tats like provided i cut down on my puffs.
I should limit my fag consumptions.
Maybe i should try out kk's way.

gab said : smokers never quit, they only go on holidays.
like wtf lol
quite true to an extend.
Haha.

ahhh...

then itunes just have to hit me at this time..

Pink - who knew.mp3
the lyrics just too powerful.

zzz

1pm till 11pm @ novena tml.

2010-03-03T20:22:00.002+08:00

If you have a chance to step in.
stay within.
for just one second.

just to understand whats on my mind.
just to understand what my heart says.

you will see....

how often i cry.
you will find many secrets and lots of lies.

but what you will see most is how hard it is to stay strong
when nothing is right.
and everything is wrong.

i text him.
i know its a wrong move.
but i know i need it.

as promise.

simple.

2010-02-28T18:21:00.017+08:00

THE MOST AWESOME 21st BIRTHDAY PARTY EVER.
I SWEAR.

THANKS EVERYONE (:

GUEST LIST :

♥♥♥ DK.KK.WR.YL.BH.GABIE+GF.LINNA.ANGELINE.♥

♥♥♥ SHANNY.LP.FEL.J.TUN.THOMP.KENNY.JL.D.HONG.♥

♥♥♥ GF.CK.WILLIE.ALVIN.WANTING.EDWARD.♥

♥♥♥ DERRICK.WEILONG.ZAI.NICHOLAS.ZHICHENG.♥

♥♥♥ MING.GDINE.YP.IVY WONG/LO.SHUSHEN.NICOLE.LIYANA.VIVI+BF.JOAN.SANDY+BF.CANDY+BF.CHRISTOPHER.
LAITING.♥

♥♥♥ KARINE.ETHAN.CHARMAIN.MARCUS.CARMEN ♥

SILOSO BEACH RESORT PARTY.
cost me a bomb.
but this joy.
this happiness.
all the hugs and wishes that i received.
one WORD.
AWESOME.
No one knows how great this feels like.
esp. when you see every single one standing right before you.
singing you a song.
i felt like a princess of the night.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

SPECIAL THANKS TO derrick.KENNY LAM.+ 0710.
YOU GUYS ARE JUST THE BEST ♥♥
without you guys, it wont be a successful night.

I was being the worst host of the year.
trying so hard to entertain all the different groups of friends.
I hope i tried hard enough (:

managed to open up all my presents!!
JUST LOVE THEM ALL.
IM SO GONNA SLEEP WITH ALL MY WONDERFUL GIFTS.
HARD WORK BIRTHDAY CARDS/Photo-Album.
ESP. Owner's + my.USUAL's.

Rooftop ambiences was just too good.
after cake cutting session.
CO.GROUP all left. :(
the crowd starting to clear after each hour.

Had a little HTHT session with my lovers kk + wr @ the poolside.
Chillax corner with owner.LWL.ZAI.ZC.and Nic.

That night.
smoke is like free.
i opened 3 pack of blast in one day.
i think im dying soon.
blast it all. lol
5 lighters all gone within a night.
and im left with none.
All my Crickets. :(

5-6am in the morning.
started gambling/drinking..
my neat with OWNER + LWL.
cups after cups..
till i drop.
not cause i was drunk.
i was up there.
high enough to dance on the room platform.
high enough to kaopei.
high enough to remember who made my resort room looks like a palace.
HAD my mini "speech" before i Knock out.
Zai was lying all around.
from room to corridor to room to corridor. LOL
damn funny.
Owner start singing.
LWL just cant stop saying he wan to drink.
just cant stop complaining how upset he is.

I made a new little friend at the pool.
She's kristen. (:

HEY MY AWESOME BOYS.
THANKS FOR COMING. (:
KK.WR.DK.BH.YL.GAB

YES LINNA.
i know you must be the one who did the album.
I LOVE IT.
though i look fucking chui back then.
HAHA.
♥♥♥

After Sunrise.
lying in bed.
before i shut my eyes.
and knock out.
I said this to myself....

"This is all that i need.Goodnight".

Deep down.
i knew i was waiting for that one thing.
but still.
thanks.

just when i log on to msn.
i got what i needed.
and that's my 21st.

a complete one. ♥

Loves.

2010-02-27T01:29:00.006+08:00

J.TUN 20th <3 (THURSDAY)

FEL 21st STEAMBOAT. (FRIDAY)

Finally turned 21.
TML is so gonna be a BLAST. (:
EXCITED.

but come to think of it.
its quite a lonely night.
spending my 21st home alone.
MUM staying over at sis place.
taking care of Zan.
BRO Is not in town.

and so im alone.
:(

BUT!
TML is gonna be a good good night.

SEE YOU GUYS TML <3

2010-02-25T02:12:00.002+08:00

Learn.
Look.
& See what is the truth before you.

neither am i..

of any importance.

J.TUN's Chalet tomorrow night.
DTE.

2010-02-24T02:28:00.003+08:00

Relationships are worth fighting for,
but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting.

At time,people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you must move on and
realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give
you.

Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around
and don’t lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t anymore,
and then be fought for.

Never ever be a backup plan.

then again.
i just found out something.
will this ever ends?.
or is it gonna chained all of us up.

i don't really know whats going on.
and the fact is that.
I'm srsly, never gonna find out.
I'm never gonna know.

just like what i said on the phone last night.
when i was questioned.

I was never back to square one.
like you.

cause in fact.
I was always standing there.

that spot.

the clock never stops ticking.

2010-02-23T02:38:00.002+08:00

You know that feeling?
That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place,
not only because it’s right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible?
I want to believe that.

Needed to know about the past
that no matter what has happened,
it has all worked together to bring you to this very day.
And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.

come to realize.
r/s.

Some open you up to something special,
Some seems old and familiar,
Some brings up lots of questions,
Some brings you somewhere unexpected,
Some brings you far from where you started,
and Some that brings you back.

But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that’s just fabulous.

Sis finally gave birth this afternoon.
Yes.
he is ZAN LI. (:
nephew nephew nephew !

2010-02-22T04:25:00.003+08:00

There's always a price to pay for everything.

Assurance is something you will need once in awhile.
Its a matter of a
how and who.

Words can be cheap.
but you'll never know how powerful words can affect you.

I haven stop complaining.
ever since 2 years back.
about how shitty my life gets.

Love is like a risk.
its about how far you dare to risk it.
but love isn't everything.

Things gets better if you play with your mind.
Instead of your heart.

restrictions.
boundaries.
responsibilities.

there's a wall that you need to build.
have that line drawn clear.
to guide your way.

After all,
you never know when the good angel of fortune might
bring a page from your book to life
and throw a kind of miracle your way.

I'm glad in the sense.
come to think of it.
i have everything.
though i might seems that i have nothing.
and no one will ever know what it means
only myself (:

you can get through all the bad times
keep looking for better ones,
as long as you have people who loves you.

sometimes we build up walls,
not to keep pple out,
but to see who cares enough to knock them down.

drama never ends.

but god knows.

you know.
that I'm so gonna face it.
and i mean no running away.
at all.
(:

I'm done.

Can't wait for Saturday to come.

reminisce

2010-02-18T16:38:00.000+08:00

Just when i thought.
i was never gonna be there again.

consecutive 2 days.
i went passed that place.
my emotions got messed up within.
but i don't wish to mention any of it.
just wanted that little space.
to reminisce.
what we had tgt.

Upper thompson rd prata house.
ran into arwin.
and thats when i saw claire too.
this world just cant be any smaller than this.
another mutual friend.
i thot she looks familiar from the back.
and realized it was really her. (:

i seriously need to get rid of my ah-de-dustsss..
credits to dq.
lol.
and now..
its kswiss.
:(

thank god.
IAP coming to an end.
and i mean.
tml is my last day (:
lalala...~

GRAD GRAD GRAD!.
FINALLY...

2010-02-16T04:37:00.008+08:00

3 movies for CNY.
Valentine's DAY.
Percy Jackson & the Lightning Thief.
14 Blades.

just got home.
4 more hours of sleep.
and im heading to work.
YAWNS.
Tires.

FRIDAYSS.

MIDNIGHT SHOW @ Marina.S
River valley spizes for SUPPER.
wr joined us after CLUBBING.
Clubber la sommebody. lol
club club club.:X
joke for the night.
was wr falling asleep while waiting for cab.
there's more to it actually.
you got to be there to see it.
HAHAHA.

me and kk enjoying ourselves laughing at him. HAHA.

AND AND AND!!!
my usuals are getting me a DAMN GOOD POWERFUL gift for my BIRTHDAY!!!
IM GONNA GET INKED!
THEY ARE SO GONNA PAY FOR IT.
Yes.
its gonna be so meaningful (:

but they hate me:(
cause of my fugly BANGS.
saded.

wr claims that my gift = "ADDS TO the lian".

i'm not :(
i hate lians.
so im definitely not gonna be one UH.

to sidetrack.
there were lots of drunkard that night.
fucking drama.
cant stop laughing.

the 3 idiots were really gonna "wake up in the morning feeling like PD" LOL.

SATURDAYSS
SLEPT till 3pm in the afternoon?
Woke up.
bro's friends came for visiting.
makan.
BACK TO BED.
Woke up.
STEAMBOAT.
Went down to store.
collected the key.
BACK home.
Nua through the night on a SAT.

SUNDAYSS
IMPROMPTU visiting.
din expect to be going for any though.
ended up in 2 different places.
head down cuppage late afternoon.
met up with woman.
she has got updateSS to share.
and her 10 bucks voucher. HAHA.
STARBUCKS.
Then to wine connection.
a damn great place to chill (:

who says vday = roses + lovers.
I spent my vday with FRIENDSS.
so what (:
ITS OVER...AHEM.. lol
Nothing.

Coincidentally.
owner was in for the same show.
same cinema hall
same timing.
same row in terms of seatings?
4D also not so ZHUN lol.
Owner says HI (:

was pretty tired that night.
walked to Starbucks.
then home.

Phone is dead.

MONDAYSS.

WORKED.
14bucks per hour? lol
why not?
more than my Ang Bao money please.
Bought a pair of shoes after work.
head home.
Ate lunch.
NAP NAP NAP.
woken up by kk's text.

YL fetched us to kc place.
visiting.
GAMBLE.
i won 4 bucks? HAHA.
din wanna play initially though.
Luck is good.

supper.
Thompson road ba chor mee.
roaming around.
finding our way.
passed by...

i felt tensed.
like it just comes naturally.

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH TUN.

2010-02-12T23:13:00.001+08:00

BANGS BANGS BANGS <3

WEEKEND IS LOVE.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE<3. !

TSC LOVES YOU.

2010-02-11T13:22:00.004+08:00

when the camwhore queen is around.
there's no way i can eascape. HAHA.
See you when you're back to singapore bitch. (:

Self Declared half day leave this morning. :X
just got to the office.
was too tired.
just wan to sleep more. :X
mum was sick too.
brought her to the doctor.

OWNER SURPRISE!
Was at work last night.
Owner and his fren Willie came.(:
YAY. i got SNACKS and my fav green Tea. lol.
which shanny called it POISON. lol like WTF. haha
she's crap la. LOL.

that dumbass owner waited for me to knock off from work.
Were outside plaza sing.
smoke. HTHT.
from 10 plus to 2am?
i din know i have so much to say.
I was talking most of the time.
What else?
my boring shit dramatic life.

well.
ya maybe its all abt balance.
you cant be a overly reasonable person.
at times maybe i shld try to be unreasonable.
i shld learn to be bad. (:
just like bad boys always got you crazy over them.
har.
wadever the case.
so this is it.

one question.
that i keep asking myself.
whatever you doing right now.
whatever you are left with.
what you are going through in your daily life.
is that really what you really wanted?
from the day you left me.

just so i understand you too well.
that's why i knw i have to let go.
though i know im pretty fine now.

but i know.
it like a...
if you see him again.
you are back to square one again.
isnt it?
(:

i should be reminded.
Happy weed.

you invade

2010-02-10T18:23:00.001+08:00

You invade my dreams.
Camp out in the corners of my mind.
And occupy my heart.

Decision Made.

2010-02-09T14:49:00.002+08:00

decision made.
like FINALLY.
after few weeks/mths of struggles.
Its not the best of what I wanted.
But at least from the list of things that i know i don't want to do.
slowly eliminating..
i found my choice (:

you can plan to fail.
but dun fail to plan.

but i hate planning.
and to plan for future.
just not as easy as you think.
unless way back then you are already very sure of what you really want.

at least im nt too lost yet.
Im gonna take a break from schools.
CTN salary is just too attractive to keep me staying on.
or rather im pretty much too lazy to re-adapt to new working environment.
:(

i wan to get my license this year. :x
ok alot of pple are gonna have so much comments abt me taking my license.
haha.. Cause i passed my FTT like 1 year ago?...
and im just wasting my time and $$.
renew-ing my PDL for 3 times?
and refuse to moltivate myself to start going for practical. lol.
FINE FINE .
i swear by this year im gonna get it. :)

Im going to start dancing again ! (:
came across this dance school last weekend.
It was DK that pointed it out.
If not i wouldnt have notice it.
Back then, was too busy and all.
simply have no time for dance.
left O-school Dance.
thought maybe i should take up dance again.

Looking forward (:

Started with a perfect kiss
then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you
I love you enough to let it go.

just hope maybe.
one day.
you will be able to hear me once again.

2010-02-09T01:59:00.002+08:00

3 hours of sleep.
intern.
work.
steamboat at bugis.
Haji.

and its really time for bed.

why.

tell me why?.
:(

2010-02-08T02:04:00.004+08:00

Saturdays loves <3
just cause this weekend everyone is around (:
full attendance.
Town SHOPS + GWC TIMEZONE + TIMBRE DRINKS + GEYLANG BEANCURD = AWESOME!
it feels good to be loved by friends. (:
isnt it.
though it will be different from..

wr was being an ass.
he just has to keep singing.
kk cant stop calling me dumb/kumgong.
but i cant love them more than this. (:

heard this on 95FM.

You look in my eyes and I get emotional inside
I know it’s crazy, but you still can touch my heart
And after all this time you think that I wouldn’t feel the same
But time melts into nothing, and nothing's changed

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I had a dream
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

Each day of my life, I’m filled with all the joy I could find
You know that I,I'm not the desperate type
If there’s one spark of hope left in my grasp, I'm holding it with both
hands
It’s worth the risk of burning, to have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, no, I need you, baby
I still believe that we can be together, no…
If we believe that true love never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again, Mmm..

I still believe
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again (Oh, baby, yeah)

I had a dream
You and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

I still believe (Ooh, baby, I do)
Someday you and me (Just give me one more try)
In love again

I had a dream (I miss your love)
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves
In love again

and it just hits me all over again.
while blogging halfway. :(

ya i should listen to owner.
i should remain happy.
and not go back to my emo days again.
i really shouldn't.

*same to you my friend.
i know you can be stronger than this.

i had been saying too much for the past 4mths.
i guess i've reach a point whereby i stop mentioning so often.
take it just like any another joke.
a joke of my life.
being part of the joke.
laugh it out loud like no one will ever care.

just when you decided to do a test on yourself.
how does it really feels like when you touches your heart.
you realized.
you still feel him in you.

is it happiness?

or do u feel safe,
just cause you know he is still there.

Chris Daughtry + LifeHouse + Nickelback = Best combo ever. (:

its not like i dunnoe.
its not like i don't feel.

at times i feel.
i might just let it slip away.
without even knowing it.

its me.

im a mistake in this world.
isnt it.

2010-02-05T02:25:00.000+08:00

Irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.

2010-02-04T12:14:00.001+08:00

I know i can't ask for more.

but maybe that's really all i wanted to happen.

then again.
i do understand.
just like you always know how much i understand you.
somehow i hope i still do.

2010-02-04T01:09:00.002+08:00

I swear, we just cant get enough of this.. HAHAHA.
It has been a long time. <3

ya.
so what we both failed.
we are so gonna be good again.
right babe. (:
stay strong.

last night after our HTHT .
kk's texted me.
HE IS HUNGRY.
im being too nice.
met him at tiong baru.
acc him makan. (:
chat chat chat...
its almost 2am by then.

walking home alone was really that scary.
its not that kind of scared im talking about.
but..
ya..
the loneliness kind of scared.
last night i really felt a moment of emptiness again.

just when i reach the stairs at the bridge.
i thought i ..

2010-02-02T10:00:00.000+08:00

There comes a time in life when you hv to let go of all the pointless drama bullshit,surround yourself with pple who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. Afterall life is too short to be anything but happy.

2010-02-02T00:10:00.003+08:00

bf's fav ALL TIME. LOL.
HAPPY KK? (:
from ISABELLE. HAHA

NEXT

MY FAV!

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here

When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

people change.
we all changed.

It's funny how you think you actually mean something to someone, and they just turn around and prove you wrong.