everyone just know everyone.

and i mean that's so true.
when the days goes by.
you realized.
everyone just knows everyone.
its just the matter of time.
was telling maine this morning.
this world is just too fucking small.
fuck this world.
fuck this town.

did literally nth at work today.
ebuddy the whole morning.
till lunch.
afternoon..

and wl just cant stop nagging about having more nutrients.
lol..
he can be real irritating at times..
but i know he means well for me though.
thanks.

met up with shann and kaki after intern.
maine has brother to meet.
ping has her 4th mth to be busy with.
4th months..

how i wish mine was still counting.
but that only happens in my dreams.
somehow..
im envy.

wr called.
as usual in his monotonous voice.
like totally just not in the mood. haha
short simple questions.
and ended it like within seconds.
just feels like punching him lol

took a bus back.
dropped @ tbp.
met up with J for a smoke.
talked abt work.
friends.
life.

stress abt career that's coming up next.
but that doesn't take long to keep my minds off...

...

what has always been there ever since.

Smoke.

its dumb.

but that's so true.

the reason why i started to smoke.
the reason why i wasn't even determine to quit at all.

i found out why.
my stories.
my thoughts.

how have you been.
i wonder.

it has been so easy for u.
would you ever realized.

FRIDAY,SAT & SUN

Friday was woman's 20th belated birthday dinner.
i suck at organizing gathering like that.
sorry bitch. :( lol
everyone is busy.
sometimes its just not an easy job to gather everyone.
but i must say.
it had been a long while since we met up for a dinner like that.
after all it was a good one (:
after steamboat.
got back home abt 2am.
the usuals called.
before i could even get changed and all.
im leaving the house again. lol
secretly i left.
before my mum wakes up and start her crap. =X

met the guys.
picked me up at my place.

went for supper like AGAIN.
sent kk back home to pack his stuffs.
sent him to cmpb.
wr joined us after LJ-session at zouk. HAHA.

one shocking news. lol

nest was me saying.
"Everyone just love to breakup with me la"
they laughed.
even kk and yl wants to breakup with me. lol
tats quite sad. HAHA.

got back in the morning at abt 6am.
Some thoughts went wild in my head.
what's next.
i dunnoe.

last night at supper club.
with char.
marcus and fren joined after that.
Jonathon came along (:
its quite bad for a first meeting like that.
im like wasted.
zz.
unglam shit.

gonna catch new moon SOON.
at 7.10pm.

got to get going.

totally drained out after working for almost 14 hours.
i can never be more tired than this.
dozed off in the office.
din wanna spoil the image of the sch as an intern.
cant really slp in peace.
got myself a hot cup of milo
to keep myself awake.

im pretty proud to say.
im still on time everyday.
8.30am sharp.
no matter how tired i get.
no matter how torturing it can be to drag myself out of bed.
i still managed to discipline myself.

didn't really do much today.
im still as distracted.
my mind just refuse to focus.
i dunnoe why.

spamming talor swift's you belong with me the whole afternoon.

another 14 hours tml.
same goes for thurs.

weekdays are just boring days.
weekends.
was suppose to be what im always looking forward to.
but it doesn't feels the same to me anymore.
it just feels like any other days.

TSC feels empty.
empty little box.

suddenly i just thought.
my life had really been such a drama.

im tired.

will someone just hold my hands and pull me along.
cause i have no idea where am i heading anymore.

First of.
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST BITCH OF THE YEAR. GERALDINE LEE WEI WEN.
LEE WEI WEN sounds like a guy right. LOL. hahaha.
i still love you la dun worry.

I must say we some what click damn well.
we are like same but different. LOL.
cause our character are just fuckup crap. lol.

All our conversations are just simply crap and fuck shit. =x
Around us, you will think we are damn bitchy and we just cant stop cursing each other every second.
But deep down inside, we know. (:

thanks for being there for all the rants, and times when im down with deep shit.
siglap-loves. <3

school days had finally came to an end.
no more dragging myself to lectures, tutorials and and various "fish tanks" for lab lessons.
First week of internship at PSA Vista.
half the time im on facebook, ebuddy..
the usual few on internship were all spamming comments on fb.
making it seems like a MSN window to us.
ya we were just plain bored.

Gotten my assignment on thurs though.
trying out on the software and stuff.
hopefully get some work done by Monday.

intern ends on 20th feb.
good date.
haha.
Just in time to plan for my 21st.
Just a day before that idiot's 21st too.

well.
how am i feeling now?
i don't really know though. (:

everyone around me seems to be struggling to be single now.
whats going on man.
i really wonder.
life is such a bitch.

fml.


Focusing on my intern and work @ CO.
weekdays just slipped away before I even know.
weekends are reserve to re-charge myself,meeting up with my usual lovely boys who are out from camp, nightouts with the girls, bonding with mum.

then again..
emptiness still comes haunting too often.
that's really bad.


im pretty surprised.
of a recent dream i had.
maybe god can hear me.
maybe he could hear me.
haha.
i guess im thinking too much.
like i always do.
kk is gonna give me a one XGOOD ONE jiajialat again if he reads this.

im being force out of my comfort zone many times.
now and then.
i just need a hug.

well, you once need it too.
now i feel it.

thoughts thoughts thoughts.
im not running away from them.

when i knew the signs wasn't right
i felt stupid.
being swept away by you.
feels like a fool.
so confused
heart was bruised all over.
was i ever loved?
i wonder.

Out of reach.

that night,
i can just come home.
nobody's back.
im not even told that my mum was away for 4 days.
bro is not even home.
where's love.
not even family.
that feeling is fuckup i swear.

not long ago.
i thought i got them both.
but i lose it at the same time.
how great (:

maybe i will get better in time.
i wont say i will never be able to put down.
but who knows when i will.

i must say.
this very 2 person.
did make a great impact in my life.
its that special feeling that i cant explain.

Not forgetting Weed owner.
he calls me silly weed.
stupid weed.
but he makes me a happy weed at times.
i must say, he is just like the happy pie that makes me smile when im really feeling damn fuckup emo.
He gives me random calls just to keep me accompanied and no other intentions.
i really appreciate it so damn much. (:
<3

not forgetting my best kaki.
he will also be there to hear me out .
give me a pat on my back.
telling me that everything is gonna be alright.
and lends me his shoulder whenever i needs it.
thanks buddy (:

the breezes
and stars at dam.

i miss them.

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everyone just know everyone.

and i mean that's so true.
when the days goes by.
you realized.
everyone just knows everyone.
its just the matter of time.
was telling maine this morning.
this world is just too fucking small.
fuck this world.
fuck this town.

did literally nth at work today.
ebuddy the whole morning.
till lunch.
afternoon..

and wl just cant stop nagging about having more nutrients.
lol..
he can be real irritating at times..
but i know he means well for me though.
thanks.

met up with shann and kaki after intern.
maine has brother to meet.
ping has her 4th mth to be busy with.
4th months..

how i wish mine was still counting.
but that only happens in my dreams.
somehow..
im envy.

wr called.
as usual in his monotonous voice.
like totally just not in the mood. haha
short simple questions.
and ended it like within seconds.
just feels like punching him lol

took a bus back.
dropped @ tbp.
met up with J for a smoke.
talked abt work.
friends.
life.

stress abt career that's coming up next.
but that doesn't take long to keep my minds off...

...

what has always been there ever since.

Smoke.

its dumb.

but that's so true.

the reason why i started to smoke.
the reason why i wasn't even determine to quit at all.

i found out why.
my stories.
my thoughts.

how have you been.
i wonder.

it has been so easy for u.
would you ever realized.

FRIDAY,SAT & SUN

Friday was woman's 20th belated birthday dinner.
i suck at organizing gathering like that.
sorry bitch. :( lol
everyone is busy.
sometimes its just not an easy job to gather everyone.
but i must say.
it had been a long while since we met up for a dinner like that.
after all it was a good one (:
after steamboat.
got back home abt 2am.
the usuals called.
before i could even get changed and all.
im leaving the house again. lol
secretly i left.
before my mum wakes up and start her crap. =X

met the guys.
picked me up at my place.

went for supper like AGAIN.
sent kk back home to pack his stuffs.
sent him to cmpb.
wr joined us after LJ-session at zouk. HAHA.

one shocking news. lol

nest was me saying.
"Everyone just love to breakup with me la"
they laughed.
even kk and yl wants to breakup with me. lol
tats quite sad. HAHA.

got back in the morning at abt 6am.
Some thoughts went wild in my head.
what's next.
i dunnoe.

last night at supper club.
with char.
marcus and fren joined after that.
Jonathon came along (:
its quite bad for a first meeting like that.
im like wasted.
zz.
unglam shit.

gonna catch new moon SOON.
at 7.10pm.

got to get going.

totally drained out after working for almost 14 hours.
i can never be more tired than this.
dozed off in the office.
din wanna spoil the image of the sch as an intern.
cant really slp in peace.
got myself a hot cup of milo
to keep myself awake.

im pretty proud to say.
im still on time everyday.
8.30am sharp.
no matter how tired i get.
no matter how torturing it can be to drag myself out of bed.
i still managed to discipline myself.

didn't really do much today.
im still as distracted.
my mind just refuse to focus.
i dunnoe why.

spamming talor swift's you belong with me the whole afternoon.

another 14 hours tml.
same goes for thurs.

weekdays are just boring days.
weekends.
was suppose to be what im always looking forward to.
but it doesn't feels the same to me anymore.
it just feels like any other days.

TSC feels empty.
empty little box.

suddenly i just thought.
my life had really been such a drama.

im tired.

will someone just hold my hands and pull me along.
cause i have no idea where am i heading anymore.

First of.
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST BITCH OF THE YEAR. GERALDINE LEE WEI WEN.
LEE WEI WEN sounds like a guy right. LOL. hahaha.
i still love you la dun worry.

I must say we some what click damn well.
we are like same but different. LOL.
cause our character are just fuckup crap. lol.

All our conversations are just simply crap and fuck shit. =x
Around us, you will think we are damn bitchy and we just cant stop cursing each other every second.
But deep down inside, we know. (:

thanks for being there for all the rants, and times when im down with deep shit.
siglap-loves. <3

school days had finally came to an end.
no more dragging myself to lectures, tutorials and and various "fish tanks" for lab lessons.
First week of internship at PSA Vista.
half the time im on facebook, ebuddy..
the usual few on internship were all spamming comments on fb.
making it seems like a MSN window to us.
ya we were just plain bored.

Gotten my assignment on thurs though.
trying out on the software and stuff.
hopefully get some work done by Monday.

intern ends on 20th feb.
good date.
haha.
Just in time to plan for my 21st.
Just a day before that idiot's 21st too.

well.
how am i feeling now?
i don't really know though. (:

everyone around me seems to be struggling to be single now.
whats going on man.
i really wonder.
life is such a bitch.

fml.


Focusing on my intern and work @ CO.
weekdays just slipped away before I even know.
weekends are reserve to re-charge myself,meeting up with my usual lovely boys who are out from camp, nightouts with the girls, bonding with mum.

then again..
emptiness still comes haunting too often.
that's really bad.


im pretty surprised.
of a recent dream i had.
maybe god can hear me.
maybe he could hear me.
haha.
i guess im thinking too much.
like i always do.
kk is gonna give me a one XGOOD ONE jiajialat again if he reads this.

im being force out of my comfort zone many times.
now and then.
i just need a hug.

well, you once need it too.
now i feel it.

thoughts thoughts thoughts.
im not running away from them.

when i knew the signs wasn't right
i felt stupid.
being swept away by you.
feels like a fool.
so confused
heart was bruised all over.
was i ever loved?
i wonder.

Out of reach.

that night,
i can just come home.
nobody's back.
im not even told that my mum was away for 4 days.
bro is not even home.
where's love.
not even family.
that feeling is fuckup i swear.

not long ago.
i thought i got them both.
but i lose it at the same time.
how great (:

maybe i will get better in time.
i wont say i will never be able to put down.
but who knows when i will.

i must say.
this very 2 person.
did make a great impact in my life.
its that special feeling that i cant explain.

Not forgetting Weed owner.
he calls me silly weed.
stupid weed.
but he makes me a happy weed at times.
i must say, he is just like the happy pie that makes me smile when im really feeling damn fuckup emo.
He gives me random calls just to keep me accompanied and no other intentions.
i really appreciate it so damn much. (:
<3

not forgetting my best kaki.
he will also be there to hear me out .
give me a pat on my back.
telling me that everything is gonna be alright.
and lends me his shoulder whenever i needs it.
thanks buddy (:

the breezes
and stars at dam.

i miss them.

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